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Identity Crisis

As you might have guessed from the lack of updates here, my job almost succeeded in eating me alive. Almost.

Rooted in Conflict

Oddly enough, it was my job that indirectly tipped off an identity crisis when it comes to photography. When I started training, I learned that two of my cohorts dabble in the craft. One of them happens to be really good at it.I’d rather not share his work here right now (as it will probably lead him here to this blog, which I’m not ready for him to find). Feel free to leave me a comment if you wish to see it. The thing about his portfolio is it made me feel like an inferior photographer. I saw through the fisheye lens and liberal post-production work to suss out solid composition and excellent timing. I am especially impressed with his shots of birds. Given how much I like birdies, I suddenly felt a bit unworthy. The praise posted did not help things. I had a bit of a meltdown over it, and only chats with a few different friends helped me determine what to do in regards to my future in taking pictures.


Long story short, I’ve started to really accept that I’m a technician and not an artist. When I raised the question of quitting photography on Facebook on, the point was raised about artistic photography making a statement. Here’s the thing. I don’t always see photography that way, especially artistic works. When I view photos in a physical gallery or exhibit space, I look at how the photo utilizes foreground/midground/background facets of composition. I also consider how much I can immerse myself in the scene on a base level. Ultimately, that’s what I try to do with my photography. I aim to engage sense beyond sight. I want people to imagine the texture of flower petals, the scent of a goat’s enclosure, or hear the breeze jostling objects in a scene. I do this through various in-camera/in the field techniques. I feel that the vast majority of post-processing takes away from achieving this goal. Yes, this does apply to the work of the photographer I mentioned earlier.

The Mist in the Gorge in the Valley

When I’ve dabbled in competitions, I have had some success. Aside from my YBS Top 100 milestone, I have people favoriting/voting for my photos on I Shot It. I can’t say for sure if these people are experiencing what I share on a sensory level. It’s all anonymous, kind of like an actual gallery where I’m not around to directly observe their reactions. My photos seem to do things for some people, though. I guess I have that going for me.

The Way Way Up

Ultimately, camera technique interests me way more than post-processing (even if I can stomach Lightroom). I care more about finding lenses that will best fit my budget and subjects than I do about actions. Staying quiet to not disturb the wildlife I photograph is more important to me than staying on top of photo software updates. If these priorities mean I’m a technical photographer and not an artistic one, then that’s what I am. Why I keep trying my hand at artistic pursuits I’ll never know.

The Gaze

Being in the technical camp means I don’t have a whole lot of support out there, but I do have some. Ken Rockwell’s op-ed on RAW files echoes some of the sentiments I have when it comes to the craft of photography. I suppose it’s nice to see someone echo my thoughts when that person’s photography background is way different than mine. As I dove back into photography courtesy of working in a photo lab, I saw some lovely things come out of developing film by placing it through automatically timed chemical baths and nearly no interference in printing. Some customers I developed film for were taking photography classes and brought their film to my store. It was fun to see their work because it was really gorgeous. Because of that, I got to see stunning work created without post-processing meddling. If there was ever a moment that my anti-manipulation dogma took root, this would be it.

Bluebell Wannabes

It all boils down to this. I’m a technique freak that’s been trying to bite off more than I can chew. I’ve gotten lucky in that regard in the past, but this time around it finally became too much. It’s in my best interest to stay focused on improving technique since my desire to make a grand statement on a topic with my photos doesn’t appeal to me. Here’s to actually staying true to my technique-oriented self. I hope I can do this.

Cliff Side Story
Flowery Language
Stick Around
Always On Edge
Up in the Air
The Lure Below
Carry Across the Waves


Snapping Through School

Let’s take look at some more early film exploits. I wasn’t too hardcore into photography during my high school years, but I did like to go out with my camera. Though my APS camera was far from top of the line, I considered it to be my good camera and was rather selective of where I brought it. Many of the most photo-worthy moments happened on band trips that posed too many opportunities to lose or damage my good camera. Finding moments to go out and shoot things for the sake of taking pictures were rather rare, especially given my very busy schedule. However, there were enough excursions and moments where my APS camera could go. Here are some shots from my high school years up to my graduation in 2003.

Convincing critter
So what is the light source?
How Floridians bide their time
Barge at large
Climbing among today's teens and occupy participants
gotta study
tired though the trip is just beginning
another day in DC

Summer Weekends: Labor Day

Labor Day weekend is the most active for me from a photography standpoint. My husband and I traditionally attend the Minnesota State Fair the Friday before, and I use the rest of the weekend to go on at least one photo jaunt. As I did last year, I will post two entries on the State Fair. I took nearly 700 photos at this year’s round. I’m surprised myself. In the meantime, here are some photos from when I wandered around the North Loop neighborhood of Minneapolis on Labor Day itself. The sky was such a brilliant blue that from many angles a polarizing filter would have been redundant. Given that most filters are not designed for use on cameras like Cameron, you can rest assured that the blues in the photos are all natural, if you will, and not enhanced in any way.

in waiting, not abandoned
bright as a broken light bulb
Can't tell which it is
condo complexes in miniature with their source in the background
miniatures like those in the Netherlands
an actual river on the small scale rendering!
Everyone knows the Grain Belt sign.
power lines looking good